The Land Of Make Believe Is My Fortress

I am trying to stay grounded to the harsh realities of this world that my mind, body, and spirit occupy, that I feel I lose a portion of myself with each passing day. Although I may shine my rainbow-like light and shower sprinkles of bliss onto others in this realm, I still feel lost. Unseen. Unheard. Unloved. Invisible… When I come home to my awaiting mattress of solitude, true joy overcomes me, allowing me to fall into a deep calm unknown to many.

When I lay down, I feel as if I am lying on a cloud set in the midnight sky. The fluffiness of water vapor surrounds my frame, causing me to become embedded within. Hugging every part of my body from my hair follicles to my extremities, I enter a place of serenity. As my mother’s quilt of love overcomes me, warmth begins to settle like walking into a house of coziness on a snowy Christmas day. Embracing the comfort of my personal oasis, I know when I am home. As I hug my cloud of sweetness, Melody rings my ears.

She sings me the most loving and caring lullabies. She soothes me as she whisks away my tears. Allowing me to completely set free all of my emotions that I had locked away for the day, we dance. This incredible bond between Melody, and me, is stronger than anything that I have ever experienced. Her voice is so harmonious, it paralyzes me in happiness. The music that escapes from her lips is the very meaning of love.

While I snuggle down in bliss and Melody’s sweet voice whispers me to sleep, the aroma of Lavender mystifies the air. Oh, sweet, Lavender, how your scent is so divine. I can smell your wind for miles and, immediately, I become love-struck with your very essence. Like the meadow of poppies in the Land of Oz, you put me under your spell; for the rest of the night, I am yours to command.

As my eyes begin to close the double doors to life’s insecurities and realities, fantasies enter my membrane. Imagination starts to run wild. A new world has opened its arms to me and has embraced the very entity that is me. Skies are bright pink like highlighter ink spilled in water. Grass is as blue as the deepest parts of the ocean. Bushes and trees are gummy candies in the shapes of rabbits and daisies. Water is a yellow-gold representing the positive aura that surrounds the most wonderful people. I can live without being condemned for my free spirit; free to roam without restrictions.

Every night I come home, I journey towards my place of relaxation. Here, is the only place that I can reach the highest level of knowledge of myself. I am who I want to be and that is the most amazing feeling that one can possess. This place is my safe haven and recreation. Others may scoff if I were to tell them that my favorite place on this Earth is my bed, so I do not share with the undeserving. This world I live in at night was made for me; it embodies my inner wishes and allows me to get away.